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Chapter 19 - What I Chose Not to See

I watched Claire's final video alone.

For the first few seconds, she said nothing. She just looked into the camera with that expression she used when she was deciding how much truth I could handle.

"Daniel," she began, "if you ever see this, I need you to hear something you are going to hate."

I almost laughed.

Classic Claire.

"Vanessa didn't fool you because she's a genius. She fooled you because some of her lies were comfortable. I warned you about the trust access. Susan warned you about Elliot's invoices. Dad warned you Marcus was too close to the company. You kept asking for cleaner proof because the messy proof would have forced you to choose."

I felt my face burn.

She was right.

"I'm angry with you," Claire said. "But I love you. Those can both be true. If something happens to me, do not spend the rest of your life turning guilt into another excuse to disappear. Noah will need you. Maybe I will too."

She looked away and smiled sadly.

"And if I'm dead, tell Noah I did not leave him. Tell him every stupid thing I did was because I was trying to get back to him."

I stopped the video.

Cried.

Started it again.

At the end, Claire leaned closer to the camera.

"One more thing. The number thirteen isn't a code. Noah turns thirteen in thirteen months. That's when the final archive unlocks. I chose that date because he would be old enough to understand the truth, and because if you still hadn't found me by then, somebody had done a very good job making you stop looking."

The screen went black.

For thirteen months I had thought Claire abandoned me.

The truth was uglier.

I had abandoned the part of myself that knew her.

Noah found me in the dark living room.

"Was she mad at you?"

"Yeah."

"Was she mad at me?"

"Never."

I told him the sentence Claire had asked me to say.

Your mom did not leave you.

He nodded once, then leaned into me and cried like the child he had been forced not to be.

My phone buzzed on the table.

A message from Susan.

EMERGENCY BOARD VOTE TOMORROW. ELLIOT'S PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO REMOVE YOU BEFORE CLAIRE'S SHARES TRANSFER TO NOAH.

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Even with the killers in custody, they were still trying to use Claire's silence.

This time, I wasn't going to let them.

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